bad habits

i'm sitting in the library at 11 in the morning, trying to get some reading done. but i can't for the life of me concentrate and my eyelids are starting to feel heavy. but i can't be sleepy, i've only been awake for 12 hours and that's after sleeping 9 hours. plus, i've consumed 2 cups of coffee within those 12 hours but it doesn't seem to be helping.

you know i hate it. the problem with me is i just can't sleep when i want. but when i don't wanna sleep i can't help it. argh!!!

or maybe...it's this damn book i'm reading. i hate it when people like to use big words for something so simple. i have to read the same bloody line at least 2 times before i get it. lemme give an example of a smart alec making my life difficult.

he says, "Whereas the future outlook of management accounting practice may suggest forms of converging effects increasingly at play, the field's past reflects, in large part, a sustained level of divergent peculiarities." and after reading it many times, what i got was that management accounting might be more uniform in the future, but according to the past, there will always be a level of difference. didn't have to be that complicated rite.......

gawd..i'm just pissed.

edit:[1.05pm] i've been here for 3 hours. so proud of myself. and now i'm going home. to sleep.