a different rut
this is usually the time of year where i feel life is just the same old routine week after week. but this year it's slightly different. i'm not feeling great, just that the stress is a different kinda stress. the day has finally come to decide what to do with my life.
actually, there is a path forged out ahead of me. as i have all this while, i could just follow it and quit whining. but what do i really want? i don't know. i want everything and nothing.
i hate the question where do you see yourself in five years time? is there really a point to it? are they looking for commitment? obviously everyone's gonna lie. i'd just rather live one day at a time. just take things as they come. but i can't. i haven't even started the first step and i'm worrying bout the 100th one.
i'm whiny... i'm depressed. it's really a part of my life i don't want to end. i was aware of this fact two years ago and i still can't live with it. what will happen? will anyone remember me? will i bother to keep in touch? i'm anti-social but i can't stand being left out.
why do some people embrace this change so much. is there really so much to look forward to when you hold a 9-5? they love it so much that they had to get a taste of it right after school. but i've been putting it off until now. sad thing is, i can't get a part-time job in malaysia anymore. unless i wanna be a bum with a degree.
i'm just pms-ing.
[p.s. why does my hit counter keep going up but no new messages? say hi or something... i miss you.]
actually, there is a path forged out ahead of me. as i have all this while, i could just follow it and quit whining. but what do i really want? i don't know. i want everything and nothing.
i hate the question where do you see yourself in five years time? is there really a point to it? are they looking for commitment? obviously everyone's gonna lie. i'd just rather live one day at a time. just take things as they come. but i can't. i haven't even started the first step and i'm worrying bout the 100th one.
i'm whiny... i'm depressed. it's really a part of my life i don't want to end. i was aware of this fact two years ago and i still can't live with it. what will happen? will anyone remember me? will i bother to keep in touch? i'm anti-social but i can't stand being left out.
why do some people embrace this change so much. is there really so much to look forward to when you hold a 9-5? they love it so much that they had to get a taste of it right after school. but i've been putting it off until now. sad thing is, i can't get a part-time job in malaysia anymore. unless i wanna be a bum with a degree.
i'm just pms-ing.
[p.s. why does my hit counter keep going up but no new messages? say hi or something... i miss you.]
3 comments:
i think i might be one of the culprits causing your hit counter to increase so now i'm saying something :)
whining is an intrinsic part of the quarter life crisis, i think. so is feeling useless in comparision to the other 20 somethings who have saved the whales and discovered a new vaccine all before the age of 25. *sigh*
muaks.. arent you a walkin contradiction. but that makes you all the more exciting to be with eh"P
and ppl that make partner before 30! i'd be glad to own a flat...
thanks for dropping by :)
:D
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