little lost lamb

how now brown cow? i'm gonna find out the results of my interview soon. and what's worse is that my mom won't let me just wait, i have to call in to find out. what if i didn't get it? what will i do then? what's left for me to do? where will i find a job? the new year's coming and i haven't even gotten a job yet. that's more than half a year leeching of my savings and my parents. what if i can't do what i think i want to do? do i know what i want to do? no. no i don't. how? why won't someone just employ me? why can't i just pass one simple interview? instead i get freaked out whenever i'm in the seat. i wonder if i'll be employed before i turn 23. the thought just came to my mind. shit.